Daily Archives: October 15, 2014

the work

Well, I only scored a 60% on last week’s goal of posting once a day for five days straight. I got through three before I surrendered myself to full on studying. Luckily my test passing rate is much higher, and hopefully will remain at 100% after this last test. I always walk out of the testing center doubting myself, but so far, so good.

I wrote down this precept on Sunday night, before Monday’s test #6. I still had a stack of materials to get through, and I was just really, really tired of reading, retaining and regurgitating information.

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And while it was so, so nice to have the sixth test down, I still had to come home Monday evening and clear off the dining room table yet again, and spread out the next set of materials. You’d think I’d understand this by now, but it always sneaks up on me – the day after a test I’m 100% shot. Not good for anything. I go through the motions, but I don’t accomplish much of substance.  So I wrote an amendment to my precept Tuesday afternoon.

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It’s fall, and it’s cooling down. It’s wet and it’s gray, but not gloomy. Just sleepy and still, the way fall should feel. There are so many thoughts and emotions swirling around in my head these days, but I have to briefly push them aside, pull up an extra blanket, and dive back in.

Twelve more days. I can do this.